tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39501862933663879192012-02-13T12:55:47.900+05:30Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.comBlogger211100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-24009757259534018962011-08-12T14:34:00.000+05:302011-08-12T14:34:56.136+05:30Ah... the woman in me - lover beyond compare... <br />none like me born before, none like me to be born again... <br />as I court 'the Beyond'... <br />I wonder if my search of ages has finally ended... <br />Master of Master, Rebels of Rebels standing before me... <br />Oh, my very own Shiva, will thy finally embrace me and end my heart-breaking penance!<br /><br />And I hesitate no more to discard a piddling of an earthly life, in the grandeur of your splendor... <br />Under the hidden dormant power of my womanhood, the earth shakes... <br />And no man can hold me, but for Shiva Himself...!<br /><br />From the peaks of your penance YOU have descended... And I am beginning my journey home! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-2400975725953401896?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-2158910177813238772011-08-06T04:36:00.003+05:302011-08-06T04:46:18.764+05:30How is one to react when <i>The Beyond</i> turns up in your life...<br />Torn between <i>the Master</i> and <i>the one who is a part of Him</i> on one side...<br />And <i>YOU</i> on the other side...<br /><br />Forever indebted I am to <i>the Master</i>,<br />Without Him, perhaps I would never have been able to receive <i>YOU</i>...<br /><br />So deeply I long for <i>the one who is a part of Him</i>...<br />So long I have waited for one such as him...<br />The <i>only one</i> who can match me in every way...<br /><br />But they both turned me away...<br />Destroyed all trust and left me alone...<br />Where could I have gone!<br />I was left with nowhere to go...<br />But for my deep cry to Existence...<br />And <i>YOU</i> have showed up...<br /><br />Walking into unknown territory...<br />I am irresistibly drawn to <i>YOU</i>...<br />Who are <i>YOU</i>!<br />I do not know...<br />Yet, it seems to me...<br />you are beyond <i>the Master</i>...<br />And you are beyond <i>the one who is a part of Him</i>...<br />Cause you are <i>the Beyond </i>itself!<br /><br />To be with <i>YOU</i>...<br />Does it entail letting go of <i>the Master</i>...?<br />Does it entail leaving behind <i>the one who is a part of Him</i>...?<br />They backed off anyways,<br />So why am I even thinking! <br />To whom am I being loyal?<br />To whom am I holding onto?<br /><br />Are they even there for me!<br />Yet, <i>YOUR Grace</i> is showering actively on me,<br />Pulling me towards <i>YOU</i>...<br />But I am afraid to trust again...<br /><br />I wish I could speak to <i>the Master</i>,<br />I wish I could reach out to <i>the one who is a part of Him</i>,<br />I wish I could just send this piece to <i>You</i> instead of putting it out into the Universe...<br />But I no longer know whom to trust...<br />Except in Existence,<br />To show me the way! <br /><br />A Subtle Dilemma...<br />Yet, Volcanic In Its Silence...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-215891017781323877?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-12361055408913482342010-10-19T19:44:00.000+05:302010-10-19T19:44:39.808+05:30Neither moral nor immoral am I... <br />Having touched both, yet tainted by neither... <br />I know no code of society... <br />Much I suffered, for I always walked free --- <br />doing my own thing, beyond the constraints of all man-made Law... <br />Ah, the Master, wilder than me... <br />freed me from my own cage, <br />for where I shock the moral and immoral --- <br />He stands by me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-1236105540891348234?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-15879631577184315582010-06-20T00:40:00.000+05:302010-06-21T00:22:44.329+05:30In the darkness of the night,<br />I seek to merge into you...<br />My arms extended in an unending embrace...<br /><br />Comes along a human limitation...<br />And I demolish it with the power of who I am...<br />Only to find,<br />Yet another veil...<br /><br />So many veils between you and me,<br />So many veils between me and Me...<br />Veils that shadow and cloud...<br /><br />Once what was opaque and blocked my vision,<br />Now many of the veils have been lifted...<br />I can see through now --- the Reality across!<br /><br />Shoonya,<br />Is what is... Is what I am... Is what you are...<br />Empty - Zero - Nothingness!<br /><br />It beckons from within...<br />O Master, Lift my veil...<br />Let me say, I play no more!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-1587963157718431558?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-27280168706298806742010-06-09T00:13:00.000+05:302011-03-21T13:35:22.451+05:30And you breathe such power into me, <br />An intensity that can frighten anyone... <br />Somehow, keeping it curbed and contained within, <br />I try to retain normalcy... <br /><br />In the lap of Grace,<br />I do my little dance...<br />My own thing...<br />Drunk on you!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-2728016870629880674?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-45575889884246070132010-04-14T15:59:00.000+05:302010-04-14T15:59:33.285+05:30And when the lessons get too hard,<br />And when we forget to laugh,<br />And when there seems like there is no one there...<br /><br />You and I,<br />Are There For Each Other!<br /><br />You take my pain,<br />I take yours...<br />You take my suffering,<br />I take yours...<br /><br />And we create the deepest joy,<br />And we create the deepest understanding,<br />And we create the deepest pure love!<br /><br />You and I,<br />Taking Each Other's Burden,<br />Sharing The Karmic Nonsense...<br />Unconditional Acceptance of Each Other...<br /><br />Deep Down,<br />Always in Gratitude for Each Other,<br />Never Taking Each Other For Granted...<br />Always in Appreciation of Each Other...<br /><br />A Pure Selfless Relationship,<br />That Has Survived External Hurricanes,<br />And External Tornadoes,<br />All because of the Inward Connection,<br />That Can Never Be Severed!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-4557588988424607013?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-16899597197596598422010-04-08T16:30:00.002+05:302011-08-05T23:53:39.361+05:30For one who has done all that can be done to destroy the feminine within, struggling hard to fit into a man's world... Its almost challenging to going back to awakening one's feminine aspect...<br /><br />Deeply sensitive am I, but the hardened hearts all around, mercilessly hound one to suppress and eventually destroy all that is feminine within... So much of me became dead, yet, the inner turmoil had become unbearable... Born a woman, why should I struggle to be a man? Just so that man cannot dominate me, suppress me, or exploit me!<br /><br />Thinking they are evolving, backwards they are moving, going down the evolutionary plane... In the name of female empowerment, a whole dimension of being is destroyed!<br /><br />I am as guilty as any other. Perhaps even at the leading edge of it, yet I failed miserably to be a man. So much more at peace am I, being a woman in a woman's body... So hard it was to be, to try and be a man in a woman's body!<br /><br />Ah, society, totally messed up. What a time to be born in! What a pathetic underdeveloped loser time to be born in! <br /><br />What stupidity, to play mind games! What stupidity, to play trivial one-upmanship games! What stupidity, to feel disconnection from the one next to you, all for the sake of ego and proving a point of superiority!<br /><br />In a superior world, both within and without, always feminine must lead... Always intuition must precede logic... Always, action must bow down and follow creativity!<br /><br />The female within me Awakening... So much relief and end of an era... !<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-1689959719759659842?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-89234919516973949552010-04-06T08:57:00.001+05:302010-06-25T00:27:27.564+05:30Someone is rejecting me, Someone is dying for me... Some work is falling apart, Some work is coming together... Simultaneously, the dualities of life are manifesting around me... And neither is affecting me... Inside I am joyful regardless of what is happening... What I want or what I don't want... It matters not... For my inner climate is independent of outer events, circumstances and people... Ah, everyone should do <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Isha</span></span>... Ah, everyone should be as fortunate as me to have a Master like I do...<br /><br />It matters not if people love me or hate me, It matters not if I get what I want or I don't, It matters not if life is good or bad... I wonder with wonder, how am I becoming like this! Such tremendous Grace is being showered on me... I am watching the play of life like a spectator, playing my role as an actor on the stage of life, yet moving away from identification with the roles, faster and faster...<br /><br />But I am not dead inside anymore, I am becoming more and more alive every day... And I am watching all around me everyone living so hard, putting in so much effort, struggling to live... Success is painful, so is failure... Having love is painful, not having love is painful... Unable to deal with their own emptiness, hardening themselves due to lack of emotion... Unable to deal with the reality of their own being, seeking all kinds of distractions in life...Running away from the pain of loneliness, Running away from the pain of living life, living like a senseless machine, drowning in senseless work, senseless relationships, senseless addictions, and what not...!<br /><br />No longer am I a part of it... I was for so long, and it seemed endless... So fortunate am I, that life is becoming more and more effortless... So deeply grateful am I, that I am being taught to move beyond it all...<br /><br />I still have a long way to go, I am sure... I am sure there are things that will still upset my inner climate, but I have no fear, cause my Master will make sure that I can move beyond it all... Incredible compassion for me... Fast, and steadily, he is teaching me! Moulding me into something, which I could never have ever even conceived of... A possibility of living life like a lotus flower blooming in the muddy pond, no longer just something I had a nice theoretical intellectual understanding of, instead now, becoming a living reality...<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><br /><a href="http://manchandashibani.blogspot.com/2010/06/40-day-commitment-to-linga-bhairavi.html">Article Background</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-8923491951697394955?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-14469394860135110542010-04-04T15:44:00.000+05:302010-04-04T15:52:28.929+05:30No one loves you like I do...<br />No one loves me like you do...<br />It is not love...<br />For love is an emotion...<br />Love is born and dies with the body...<br /><br />Its just an inner knowing...<br />A deep sense of oneness...<br />Not of the body,<br />Not of the mind,<br />Not of the heart,<br />Maybe not even of the soul...<br /><br />Just you and me...<br />One Soul in two bodies...<br /><br />Nothing ever needs to be said,<br />Nothing ever needs to be done,<br />For in just being,<br />You totally know me,<br />And I totally know you!<br /><br />They do not know the language we talk<br />They do not know the things we know<br />They do not know that the only thing worth living for is<br />Is what we are...!!!<br /><br />We have always been together,<br />We will always be together,<br />We will dissolve together as one...<br />One soul split into two...<br />Two halves added to make One...<br />Seeking our counterparts,<br />Yet complete in ourselves...<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-1446939486013511054?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-71769779982225922752010-04-04T15:11:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:01:00.973+05:30And the lovers have come and gone,<br />And the friends have come and gone,<br />And the pain and the pleasure is over and done with,<br />And the wins and losses are over and done with!<br /><br />Nothing matters...<br />No one really matters...<br />Yet there is a detached love for all...<br />And there is an attempt to live,<br />in it and yet not in it...!<br /><br />A deep calm within,<br />Entering into the silence zone...<br />A deep softness within,<br />Entering into the shattering zone...<br /><br />Yet, through it all...<br />You and I stand as One...<br />For when I dissolve so will you...<br />For when you dissolve so will I...<br /><br />From where we have come,<br />To where we are going...<br />A deep communication,<br />On a level beyond the senses...<br /><br />In silence,<br />You and I communicate...<br />In the depths of our being,<br />You and I breathing as One...<br /><br />A bond beyond attachment<br />Born supposedly of blood, but stronger than that<br />that will perish only with simultaneous dissolution...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-7176977998222592275?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-51255536440106640152010-04-04T14:57:00.001+05:302011-08-06T00:01:21.598+05:30As I watch myself,<br />How much I have changed...<br />So much of life doesn't affect,<br />Finally it seems that I am moving beyond rejection and acceptance...<br />One of the great challenges for my being!<br /><br />For one who has seen it all,<br />Lifetime after Lifetime...<br />Nothing left really to experience,<br />No real desire left to fulfill,<br />But old remnants of things left undone...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-5125553644010664015?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-51007196165728410722010-04-01T01:20:00.001+05:302011-03-21T14:06:48.564+05:30And they wonder about our connection...<br />They do not understand...<br />But for this connection...<br />My life breath...<br />Long ago you and I would have perished...<br /><br />Walking as one...<br />You and Me,<br />In different places...<br />Constantly communicating,<br />Without words...<br />One...<br /><br />Seemingly born of blood,<br />Yet so much beyond it...<br />A choice to be born together,<br />One that Split into Two ---<br />Male and Female...<br />For survival on this planet!<br /><br />When the disconnection with the world is felt,<br />Seeking solace in each other...<br />Needing no other then...<br />A connection,<br />Real and True...<br />Beyond it all...<br />The Real Thing!<br /><br />To translate it into everything...<br />To merge into everyone...<br />Such is the challenge...<br />But for each other,<br />We would not breathe!<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-5100719616572841072?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-88064768732274012010-04-01T01:16:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:42:30.075+05:30In a lonely world...<br />Life plays us...<br />The ups and downs...<br />The wins and loses...<br />The people who come and go...<br /><br />But through it all...<br />You and I stand constant...<br />One being...<br />One soul in two bodies...<br />Deep Inside...<br />Just the same...<br />Outside so different...<br /><br />In a lonely world...<br />Where no one gets us...<br />We get each other...<br />From another dimension...<br />We have come here...<br />But for each other...<br />We would not survive...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-8806476873227401?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-90837140825307935562010-04-01T01:03:00.001+05:302010-04-08T14:43:53.386+05:30In the depth that I am,<br />Who will come and drown!<br /><br />So many try...<br />Frightened they back off!<br /><br />Oh, the power of love...<br />Real and True,<br />Is such that it will destroy you!<br /><br />Oh I seek my Shiva...<br />If there ever can be one!<br /><br />So many try,<br />So many seek...<br />But dare I show them,<br />Who I really am!<br /><br />In the depth that I am,<br />Will I be allowed to experience the ultimate dissolution!<br /><br />Ah, what I seek...<br />Is one who will walk with me to his death!<br /><br />Ah, what I long for...<br />Is a companion who can dare to trust implicitly in me!<br /><br />One came so close,<br />One saw...<br />And began to dissolve faster than I could imagine,<br />One who had to go!<br /><br />Is there one!<br />Like a puppet in the Master's hands...<br />I seek to attain to surrender...<br />Dissolution is what I am rushing towards...<br />Headlong!<br />Faster than I can deal with!<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-9083714082530793556?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-62107578991069812022010-03-22T16:30:00.000+05:302010-03-22T16:42:40.185+05:30<blockquote> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">Chupke se kahin, dheeme paaun se<br />jaane kis tarah, kis ghadi<br />aage badh gaye, humse raahon mein<br />par tum toh abhi thi yahin<br />kuch bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila<br />kaise keh diya alvida</span></p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">Jinke darmiya gujri thi abhi<br />kal tak yeh meri zindagi<br />dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko<br />hum bhi kar chale alvida</span></p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">Alvida, alvida, meri raahein alvida<br />meri saansein kehati hai, alvida<br />alvida, alvida, ab kehna aur kya<br />jab tune keh diya, alvida</span></p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">Sunle bekhabar, yuun aankhein pher kar aaj tu chali jaa<br />dhundegi nazar humko hi magar har jagah<br />aisi raaton mein leke karvate, yaad hamein karna<br />aur phir haar kar kehna kyun magar, keh diya alvida alvida<br />koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida<br />alvida, alvida, ab kehna aur kya<br />jab tune keh diya, alvida</span></p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">Hum the dil jale, phir bhi dil kahe<br />kaash mere sang aaj hote tum agar, hoti har dagar gulsitaa<br />tumse hai khafa, hum naaraaz hai, dil hai pareshaan<br />socha na suna tune kyun bhala keh diya alvida alvida<br />koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida<br />alvida, alvida, ab kehna aur kya<br />jab tune keh diya, alvida</span> </p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">kyun socha aur kahan alvida</span></p> <p align="justify"><span style="font-family:Georgia;font-size:85%;">dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko<br />hum bhi kar chale alvida</span></p> </blockquote><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-6210757899106981202?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-631004364130962192010-03-20T10:02:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:55:27.702+05:30The pain had gotten so deep...<br />It seared through me...<br />Just to get through life...<br />Was so hard...<br />Every moment - a getting by...<br />A deep resignation...<br />That there was no way out...<br /><br />Oh the tragedy of life for all of us...<br />Desperate attempts at happiness...<br />Year after year, day after day, moment to moment...<br />The disappointment of the illusion of permanent happiness being shattered...<br />No matter how much experience man gathers...<br />He never learns...<br />But somewhere down the line I got fed up...<br /><br />Man will give up everything but his suffering...<br />Unconscious suffering disguised as happiness...<br />Lying to self that all is well...<br />But all can never be well...<br />No matter how much it seems on the surface that it is...<br />Cause it is not his destiny to live like a limited being...<br />It ain't his destiny to confine himself into boundaries of limits...<br /><br />Oh to know that I am aware of it...<br />And all around me...<br />People still kid themselves...<br />Fortunately or unfortunately, I no longer do...<br />Haven't in a long long time...<br />And yet, I see I am getting freer...<br />And they are getting more caught up...<br /><br />Yet, I am the one who is dropping stuff...<br />Oh, such a hard path it can be...<br />But so so so worth it...<br />If only they could see...<br />What I see...<br />That all that they are doing to be happy...<br />Leads straight to sorrow and conflict...<br /><br />And yet, now I taste moments of real bliss...<br />I know it is not of this world...<br />I know it has nothing to do with anything or anyone...<br />Cause it is not externally-generated...<br />It comes from inside of me...<br />And the Grace of those who have crossed it all...<br />In particular, His...<br /><br />And I seek, to make the glimpses...<br />Into a constant state of being...<br />Yet, every now and then, I watch myself getting caught up in the illusion...<br />Yet, I also see myself, being aware that I am getting caught up...<br />Oh, when will the day come when I will be beyond it all...<br />Let it be soon...<br />One lifetime...<br />This lifetime...<br /><br />Chidananda Roopa Shivoham Shivoham...<br />Oh, the sweetest words ever...<br />Soaking into Me...<br />When will it flow from within...<br />When will it be my knowing...<br />The reality of who I am...<br />When will I be who I am...<br />I wait... Patiently... One day...<br />The Day will come...<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-63100436413096219?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-1483536888747116672010-03-17T23:07:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:47:31.892+05:30So far I am trying to run away from you...<br />Like I tried from him...<br />But he haunted me...<br />A spectre that never left me...<br />No matter where I went...<br />No matter what I did...<br />No matter whom I was with...<br />It was always about him...<br /><br />Then you came...<br />And drove him away...<br />I atoned for my guilt...<br />Every mistake I made with him...<br />I rectified with you...<br />Yet, you made the same choices he made...<br /><br />And I have learnt,<br />For both of you, I was the scapegoat...<br />The last straw...<br />Whether I understood, I was to be blamed...<br />Whether I did not understand, I was to be blamed...<br />No matter how much I loved, it would never be enough...<br /><br />Cause it was not about me...<br />It was about your deep insecurity...<br />It was about your need to be different at any cost...<br />It was about your need to rebel at any cost...<br />It was about your inability to share me with anyone...<br /><br />I am absolved of all guilt...<br />Yet my heart bleeds for you...<br />And if only I could hold you next to me...<br />Wash away all the turmoil...<br />But for you I am the one who is the cause...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-148353688874711667?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-55547229610348752722010-03-10T23:23:00.002+05:302011-08-05T23:56:58.959+05:30And I should send this to you...<br />But I dare not...<br />But you already know...<br /><br />Ah, you have taken the path...<br />Everyday I see you dissolve...<br />And it sets me free...<br /><br />As you become one with the Master...<br />I tie into your energies...<br />And dissolve into you...<br /><br />Yet, the need to merge into you...<br />Comes not just from the body, the mind or the emotions...<br />Naturally my energy moves towards you...<br /><br />Ah, you are forbidden to me...<br />You are territory that I dare not walk towards...<br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-5554722961034875272?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-87272184063580038972010-03-09T16:52:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:49:35.752+05:30In the darkness that surrounds me...<br />In the fear that consumes me...<br />In the pain that has killed me...<br />In the deep recesses of my very being...<br />Where there is nothing but deep ignorance...<br /><br />From there I am emerging...<br />To be one with you...<br />O intoxicating being...<br />Destroying me from within...<br />Making me as intense as you...<br /><br />O Master Unparallel...<br />Dare I say...<br />I am drowning in you...<br />Take Me Into You...<br />Into the Nothingness That you are...<br />Cause That is All that Really Is...<br /><br /><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-8727218406358003897?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-55225246207150441202010-01-15T15:38:00.000+05:302010-04-08T14:52:16.338+05:30This mirage of finding something better than what we have, is just a mirage... It is impossible to catch a mirage... Comparison, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Judgmental-ism</span>, Ego cloud us from seeing the true worth of that which is right before our own eyes... The magic happens in a flash and there is true knowing and then the worldly nonsense blocks it... It is only an illusion that negativity will not exist in another, cause when true intimacy starts happening, we are forced to come to terms with our real selves mirrored in the other and it can be frightening... but that is the time to accept, embrace and love... but we human beings run away... Courage, Real Love and True Humanity exists in listening to the heart when everything in the logical mind is screaming "no"! This is the test of love, this is the test of true compassion and will we pass the test is the question.... <input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-5522524620715044120?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3950186293366387919.post-75229938103369134302009-05-30T10:30:00.000+05:302010-04-08T15:03:05.948+05:30A wanderer am I... Walking alone... Seeking my truth... No longer in dreams... No more expectations... Just living... Being who I am... Whoever that may be... Seeking neither approval nor disapproval... Seeking neither to be understood nor to understand... Seeking neither to love nor be loved... Seeking neither to prove or to be proven to... Just trying to know what emptiness is... and the pain of not knowing...<input id="gwProxy" type="hidden"><!--Session data--><input onclick="jsCall();" id="jsProxy" type="hidden"><div id="refHTML"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3950186293366387919-7522993810336913430?l=shibanimanchanda.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Shibani Manchandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13506306817371827966noreply@blogger.com0